“So what’s your plan? How are you going to get where you want to go?” – she said to me as I sat across the table from her in a coffee shop, crying. ‘K’ is a woman I meet with once every couple months. She’s a coach, mentor, listener & most importantly a person who cares enough to ask the tough questions. The questions I needed to be asked, but I feared to answer. The questions that get you out of your comfort zone, and force you to put your intensions out into the universe.
My story began back in 2011 when I picked up my first real camera and set out into the world to become a wedding photographer. A little voice inside me said, “This is part of your journey”. I built my portfolio, practiced my craft and developed authentic relationships with some amazing clients. It’s been a wonderful 6 years, but this year was a difficult one. I felt that fire in my heart for photography was slowly going away. I made the decision to cut back on weddings, and focus on myself. I needed time to heal, to focus my energy on some other creative outlet and to rest my soul.
That’s when Andy [my hubby] and I bought our first fixer upper in the cutest little neighborhood in December 2016. And what I mean by fixer upper, I mean we tore it down to the studs and renovated it from top to bottom. It was a labor of love, sweat and a lot of tears [mostly Andy’s sweat and my tears]. We managed the entire renovation process with the help and support of our families. Andy was VP of project management [along with my dad] and I was CEO of design. Together, we made our 1950’s house into a modern home. We moved in just this last May.
This is where my love for interior design developed. When taking a break from one craft, and by focusing my creative energy in a different way, that fire was lit once again in my heart. A little voice inside me said, “This too, is part of your journey.” I think all these little events and signs were not by accident. The universe was telling me something, pointing me in a direction, leaving me another clue.
I went on to photograph the 2 weddings I booked in September. Something felt different this time. I felt a new passion for wedding photography. I felt that fire was burning bright again. That is when I decided to pursue both wedding photography and interior design. Life is too short not to wake up doing what you love everyday. The truth is, my big dream is to be a creative girl boss entrepreneur. My passion is curating and capturing beauty in love and home.
And so there I was, sitting across from ‘K’, unsure and scared how to answer her question. I didn’t know what my plan was, I just knew who I wanted to be when I grew up. She challenged me to go home, and create a plan.
My plan?… By 2020 be a creative girl boss entrepreneur!
How?…. Well, my detailed plan is in an Excel spreadsheet [total geek].
The highlights of my plan? ….. Continue to build my photography business. Practicing my craft. Learn how to shoot in both film and digital to perfect my style. Educating myself in a number of different areas relating to the business side of photography. And much much more! For interior design, I am taking a 6 month online program to learn the basics and gain some confidence. Then, start to build my portfolio just like I did with photography. I already have a great piece for my portfolio and experience – our home! Which I am so excited to share more!
Yes, I am being honest, vulnerable and real. Yes, it took courage to write this. Sure, there may be individuals judging me. But you know what? I don’t care. Because I don’t need permission to do something that calls to my heart and brings me to life.
I know I will stumble, make mistakes and it may take me longer than 2020 to be a creative girl boss entrepreneur. I’m human. This is the start of my journey and being intentional in who and what I want to be when I grow up. It’s never too late.
“The universe buries strange jewels deep within us all, and then stands back to see if we can find them. The hunt to uncover those jewels – that’s creative living.” – Big Magic, by Elizabeth Gilbert.